1 Year Blogaversary!

One year ago today I decided to finally take a leap of faith and do something I had always dreamed of doing. I had no idea what I was doing and kept it relatively secret from everyone.I didn't want them to judge me or think I was just trying to be like everyone else. I wasn't sure how to or even where to start. I wanted to put out good content and something I was happy with. I did a couple of posts but even those go deleted before anyone saw them. I knew it would be hard and it would require a lot of dedication which I didn't really have in the beginning. There have been so many times I have been filled with self doubt and thought maybe I should just scrap my blog completely but what would I gain from just giving up.

I know I have been out of the posting game the last month and its because I've been dealing with a lot of different things. But I am grateful for this full year of being a blogger and although I haven't accomplished everything I have plans for this upcoming year.

I want to post more.

I want to be a better blogger.

I want to learn different techniques. 

I want you guys to know me.

There are going to be days where I doubt myself again and think I can't do this but I will remember how much I have grown this past year.

I know this is a random post but I just wanted to thank all of you who have supported me or even read these post the last year.  

THANK YOU!

until next time.

Noshka XXO

Update: Where have I Been?

Hello Everyone,

I'm sorry I haven't been around lately and haven't been posting as frequently as usual but I started my internship 4 weeks ago and its been very busy since then. I've been wanting to post but I haven't had the time to sit down and really focus on making a good content blog for you guys.

So I wanted to fill you in on what's been going on and how my internship is going.

A little background: as you know I graduated college in December. I knew I had the MIT internship before then; MIT is Manager in Training. I was anxiously waiting for where I would be headed to complete this internship. First they wanted to send me a little more than 2 hours from my house. I knew that wouldn't work for me since I hadn't been working and I didn't have too many resources to rely on and it was short notice to find an apartment in so little time. I contacted my recruiter and she was able to make it a location that was only an hour away from home. That made me a little bit happier because I knew I would be able to drive if I wasn't able to find an apartment (which I didn't).

As my internship started I was nervous, nervous at the fact that I would be meeting new people I had never met before. That I had to become a leader to a team of all new associates who would wonder who I was and why I was there. I was scared. Scared I wouldn't fit in and that they wouldn't accept me. That this team had worked together for so long that there would be no chance of me finding my place.

The first couple of weeks were rocky, for me at least. I lacked the confidence I had in my previous internship and reverted to being shy. But I knew that I needed to take control of that situation. I knew that if I wanted everyone to like me then I would have to take the first step and reach out to them to learn about them and thus they would want to learn about me. So that's what I did I talked to some of the associates asking them how long they had been with the company and so forth and I noticed that they wanted to learn more about me.

They were finally starting to like me when the store manager mentioned that she had heard something I had said. My words had been twisted! I felt as though my trust had been broken and that they weren't interested in me, they were interested in what I knew and what I was going to know. It shocked me that someone would take my sign of friendship and break it so easily in the time I had been there. It was hard for me to accept, after all I am going to be a leader to them soon.

It's still hard to accept, how do I become a leader everyone can trust but also take seriously?

I guess that's what I have to work on. Being confident in my skin, in my knowledge and in MYSELF.  Knowing that these next couple weeks will fly past whether I'm ready or not, whether I want them to or not.

But, I will be ready! I am going to kick butt! ( I hope lol)

So that't what I've been up to the last 4 weeks. I'm sorry I haven't been able to post as much as I've wanted to but I'm working on finding a schedule that works better. If you have any suggestions please let me know it the comments below.

I know this was a rambley blog but I hope you guys still enjoyed it!

Have you ever had to deal with broken trust? Has something happened that shocked you?

Let me know in the comments below!

Until Next Time

Noshka XX

Most Wonderful Time of The Year

Now that Thanksgiving is over and our tummies are full...

It's finally here! CHRISTMAS! I can actually pull out the Christmas sock without looking like a compete weirdo wearing them. ( not that it stopped me before.) I love Christmas like you wouldn't even know, I live for this time of year. It's a shame we have to wait the whole year for it to get here but I guess that is what makes it most enjoyable. 

For me Chirstmas officially beings right after we finish eating Thanksgiving lunch, the Spanish music switches over to Christmas music. This has been our tradition for as long as I can remember. We bring down the tree and the ornaments and start to put it all together. Usually the "kids" decorate the tree but my mom decides on what color the tree will be that year. (she doesn't like to repeat colors) 

Usually during the holiday season we pick out an ornament for the year. Along with the colored bits and bobs we have our special or rather personal ornaments that go on our tree. So keeping with tradition we started to put together and decorate our tree, sure its not done yet thanks to all the Black Friday working and shopping but it will be done in the next couple of days.

            

As you can see we are still missing the colored balls we are going to put on the tree to fill the empty spaces (mom hasn't decided what colors to go with yet)  There is something about seeing a Christmas tree, decorated with lights that makes me so happy and filled with JOY.


Here are some of our favorite personal ornaments:

From left to right: 

My favorite is the gingerbread man, not sure why but a couple years back I got this strange obsession for them. The middle one is one of my sisters favorite because of the pearls. The Santa is a new ornament but he is on a ladder climbing to the top of the tree which we are all a fan of.

The next two are also my favorite I just love stars and snowflakes. The last one is also my sisters. We went to Paris when we were younger, she decided to stay and 2 years ago she went on a trip and fell in love with the city  (like most do).

I can't wait to finish decorating for Christmas and watch Christmas Movies! I like to think I am Christmas Spirit. lol

Do you have any favorite Christmas Ornaments or Traditions? Let me know in the comments down below.

Until Next Time! :)

Dressing For College: Expectation vs. Reality

Hello Everyone,

As you all know I'm a senior in college, my brother who is younger than me is a freshman in college. like many other young ones they tend to dress up for their first year of college. My brother doesn't like that I like to wear the workout clothes to school, he doesn't understand why I wear it or how I can just wear it all the time and not care what people think. To be honest, I was one of those people who after dressing up everyday for high school thought it would carry over to college. For the first two years that I went to community college I did dress up. After I transferred to a real university I thought I would have to keep up dressing up especially with my major in fashion merchandising. So for the first couple of weeks I did dress up, I saw some people who really took dressing up seriously Then as the temperature started to get colder I realized I just wanted to be comfortable especially in fall when you can layer so many things. I continued to dress up for school but not as much as I was doing in the beginning of the semester. By the spring semester I was over it. I wanted to be comfortable and I realized nobody cared what I was wearing. Which leads me to the expectation of dressing for college:

Expectation: 

It comes from you! You believe that you should dress a certain way for college and that everyone around you cares what you wear. You dress up everyday, you have to be professional, you have to be fashion forward.

Reality:

No one cares, and everyone wants to be comfortable. People wear gym clothes/workout clothes every day of class. In this Texas heat everyone wants to wear the least clothes as possible. It's easy and you waste no time in getting ready in the morning.

Final Thoughts:

It's all about you and being confident in yourself. Sure there are some times you will need/want to dress up for class especially if it is a guest speaker or a potential job opportunity. You want to dress to impress, but if you rather spend and extra 5 minutes having breakfast rather than doing your hair or make up go for it. Everyone is worried about themselves and worried about class that chances are they don't care if you have the latest trends. Plus we know as a college student you can't really afford the newest trends. If you don't dress up for school don't stress about it too much, you'll give your face a break from all the make up and let people see the real you, plus when you do decided to get dolled up you will receive more complements which will boost your already growing confidence.

What do you think the expectation and reality of college dressing is? Let me know in the comments down below!

Until next time!